Sleepover

I lay awake, constantly, looking over my shoulder to make sure nothing is there. When I'm walking around, I feel like someone is watching me and something will happen to me too, something very very horrible, so the I can't eat or sleep because of it. I have talked to numerous of reporters, investigators, and even therapists. They all think I did it. I would never do such a thing to any living human being ever and for people to think that I'm capable, are absolutely, CRAZY! If you only knew what I go through, kids at school constantly making fun of me. I got expelled from school due to the reporters constantly following my every trail and they feel that I'm dangerous and am not allowed near other students so my mother found a tutor who could help me and even he thinks I did it! Grr! It makes me so angry and really scared. :(

Do you want to know why I'm scared? I promise that I'm innocent but i know you'll just think I'm guilty like everyone else thinks but whatever, you came here to hear it so here you go. just please know that i'm telling you the truth!

My brother and I shared a bedroom with only a bunk bed and dresser. Our parents told us that if his friend came over that I needed to sleep in the guest room but if my friend came over, he sleeps in the guest room and I bunk with my friend. So... you guessed it. I got to bunk with my friend Ashley. When she came over, she had dinner with my family and I and we were told we had to be asleep by 10 pm and no later than that. I always had a hard time sleeping even then so being asleep by 10 was nearly impossible. 
I laid there trying to count sheep, numbers, the alphabet. you name it. but i couldn't fall asleep even if my life depended on it. I brushed my teeth while ashley sat up, covered with her blanket. She gave me that smirk like she was up to something and I wanted to know what it was but before I could ask, she pulled out a big box from beneath the covers, and raised it up and toward me, i grabbed it and looked at it. I heard of them but never actually tried one. my mother told me to never play with stuff like that because it was like taunting the devil. i even agreed that i wouldn't. Ashley insisted that we play the game, she kept begging me, really pushing it... I told her that we shouldn't do that because it was dangerous. 
She just blah'd me and continued to beg me and said what was the point of a sleepover if i was going to be boring. i offered her for us to watch a scary movie but she ignored me, grabbed the game and opened it... there was the board and the piece to move on it. i cringed. i didnt want to but she insisted so i went along with it. We asked the board questions like "who are you?" "what do you want" "what's your name?" "are you good or bad?" we laughed and thought it was all just a game and that people like to lie about it to keep the scary effect about the Ouji board.
 It was 9:40 pm and i knew my parents would scold me if i didnt get to bed. We put the board away and she tucked herself into bed and i tucked myself in. we just asked each other questions about the board and that it was all just a fake scheme to make us all scared when it's all untrue about what they say about it. there was no devil either. 
I started to doze off into sleep to only be awoken by Ashley asking me another question about that stupid board game that I couldn't care less about anymore. I just wanted to go to bed before I was scolded and told that she had to go home. Ashley peered over the ledge and glared down at me, "Tommy, do think anything bad will happen to us?" She gulped, "I just need to know it's okay. Tell me its okay, Tommy."
I told her that everything was fine and that it was another stupid myth that people told each other to scare each other for what reason, I didn't know... 
We just laid there, come 10 pm and I was still awake. My parents came up to check on us and asked if we were asleep and I pretended to be asleep only to have them turn the lights on and barge on in. I was absolutely confused and terrified. They asked me if I knew where Ashley was. I climbed out of bed quickly to find the top bed empty and she was gone... The game was gone, too. I am standing there freaking the vuck out!!! Like you have no vucking idea what I was going through, it was late and my friend like, uh, just...vanished! I thought she went home so I stopped worrying. But my parents sat down stairs watching tv and would have heard the door open because they've attached a huge a*s bell to the door earlier in the weeks so they could catch one of us sneaking out at night. I was mess, standing there biting my nails and shivering, scared unwilling to move... my parents told me that I HAD to be the one to phone her parents and ask them where their daughter had gone. I called them and asked and they had no idea where she was and that her bedroom there was empty. I figured she must've gone to the store or for a walk and told my parents to wait for a little bit, so we did and hour goes by and she should have been back but wasn't. We dialed the police and explained to them what we knew and they arrived to try and help us locate her. GUESS VUCKING WHAT?!?!?!?! SHE'S STILL GONE!!!!! I AM TERRIFIED as it's been about 3 months and I search all around the neighborhood for her and no one has even seen her since then. I just want to know what she is OKAY!!! The police don't have any evidence to arrest me even though her parents are trying to get me to get life in prison. How could have I made it outside if my parents were in the living room?????? that's what I want to now. I know my friends and parents have doubts about me harming my friend but like I said I WOULD NEVER DO SUCH A THING!!!!!! I can't even close my eyes because I am afraid something will happen to me too. I admit, there are times where I see someone following me for long than usual but I feel I'm paranoid. I'm planning to move in a few days but I don't want to leave my friend :( WHAT IF SHE COMES BACK??!?!?! I WOULDN"T BE HERE.... 
I cry everyday, praying that wherever she is that she's okay and that I love and miss her dearly. I miss the memories that we'd shared before. I still can't believe that she's not here with me, having sleepovers like we always had did and it's like it all ended for some ODD reason.... but im scared and im on medicine for it but i still feel the panic. I told her parents the truth and they still think that I did it?!?!?!?! BUT WHY?!?!?! They knew me and her always got along :'(

UPDATE: My friend's body was found in the woods by my house 4 months after she disappeared and... get this, her death was ruled a suicide by hanging from tree. She was not ever once suicidal. I am still at lost for words even though its been a year. I burned the board and planchette and moved far far away.